OMG....

Here I am sitting here ready to go to jury duty really seriously me..... They will not want me once I start flopping around like a fish out of water... BWAHHAHHAAHHHAHHA Later Tater's!~!~!~!

Hello Fall!~!~! :)

Well, we all know by now that me writing something down every day just did not make the cut.  LQTM!~!  I am so super happy that I won an air machine.  It is called Rain Mate.   It is super cool and I am awaiting the oils!~!  I can watch the water fall around that thing all day~!~!  Very very calming and hope to really put it to good use!~!  I will say this after yesterday I take dusting the house to a whole new level.  I was sick and not feeling up to it DUSTING that is so I laid on the couch somewhere in there I remember turning around seeing the Boss with the air compressor dusting off my shit and I thought OMG really!!!  That was that I can not even remember the comment I made as I rolled over on the other side of the couch.  I dislike when I know I am funny and I can not remember why.  LQTM!~!~!  Today I sat here and made so many calls I even asked one lady if she would transfer me to Laurajean Guzman... BWHAHHAHHAHAHHAHH!~!~!  Shoot, time to go get the kids!~!~!

Monday!~!~!

Today, I woke up in a good mood and I felt refreshed from sleeping.  Got the kids ready for school.  Did my shopping at Publix and Wal-Mart and a shopping trip for a birthday coming up. :)  After, school the kids get the flu shot expect Gravy because, he already got his!~!  And, for the rest of the week I can sit back and relax and do nothing.  AHHHHHHHHHH feels good when I can keep up in being a Momma, Wife, Daughter, Friend, and ME.  I am trying stuff new each day and I think I will thrive and do well.  Keep happy thoughts and smile and don't pretend~!~  I think I will clean the pool once last time before the cover goes over it.  Then I will ponder and reflect.  :)  Happy Monday!~!~!~

Went to Mom's yesterday!~!~

Went over to Mom's yesterday, I felt like being a kid again and I had so much fun!!!!  We laughed and I cried and we talked and talked something, I have been wanting to do.  Being a Momma of three and a Boss and school and my breakdowns, there  has just not been much time to just sit.  Going here and going there is getting heavy on my mind and working my last nerve.  I still have not gotten over the initial SHOCK of Dr. Brace being gone.  ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SIGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!  Today, I think of many things missing my Gramps and going to see him and listening to his words of such wisdom.  I have found out that when I can really sit and relax, Mom has the same words of wisdom, even if we do not always agree, I know her love for me and my family is completely "unconditional" and that is why I love her so much!~!~  She has been there for me and her grands and the Boss and she has never let us down.  Something, I truly need in this point of my life.  I have started seeing a psychiatrist, first visit was for the surgery and he signed off on that first thing.  Then, he told me looking behind that smile and laughter there is much depression and pain and anger.  But, I already knew that.  I think he will help me deal with a lot of things that I have pushed aside for so long.  I feel like I am going to explode.......  But, yesterday brought me back to the good old days.  I need to believe that, I can do anything I set my mind too.  I will overcome this.  Feeling alone in a crowded room, scared of being alone, always needing approval, always making everyone else happy.  I need to figure out how Laurajean truly is.  One day at a time, baby steps, I will get there and I will be okay it might not be today but, I will get there. 

I am going to try to write down something each day!~!~!

I think it will help me snap back into reality and know that I can not please everyone all the time.  And, I can not make them do things they just can not do or want to do.  I must expect people for who they are and to stop trying so hard to have some kind of relationship with people who only care about me and my life when it suits them.  My new Doctor told me, it is time to worry about Laurajean and put things on hold.   I think after 46 years of being scared to be alone and making sure everyone else is happy and all smiles and full of laughter, I work on me.  It will be hard breaking that habit but, I think it is time to hold my head up high and move on to a better life for me and my family!!!  It has been so hard for so many years I have forgotten what happiness is all about.  I am going to try it and no I am not making any promises but, I will try very hard!!!!!  I am going to be less available for everyone who wants something from me that I just don't have to give right now....  I will do this!~!~  So, for now if I don't seem to care I do but, I need time and space to figure out me..........

I Believe

I Believe...  That just because two people argue,   It doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, It doesn't mean they do love each other.
	I Believe... That we don't have to change friends if We understand that friends change.
	I Believe.... That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you, every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
	I Believe..... That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
	I Believe... That you can do something in an instant That will give you heartache for life.
	I Believe.... That it's taking me a long time To become the person I want to be.
	I Believe... That you should always leave loved ones with Loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
	I Believe.... That you can keep going long after you think you can't.
	I Believe.... That we are responsible for what We do, no matter how we feel.
	I Believe... That either you control your attitude or it controls you.
	I Believe.... That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done,   regardless of the consequences.
	I Believe.... That my best friend and I  can do anything or nothing and have the best time..
	I Believe.... That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.
	I Believe... That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
	I Believe... That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had And what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
	I Believe..... That it isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others.  Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.
	I Believe... That no matter how bad your heart is broken,  the world doesn't stop for your grief.
	I Believe.... That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but, we are responsible for who we become.
	I Believe... That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
	I Believe.... Two people can look at the exact same Thing and see something totally different.
	I Believe... That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
	I Believe... That even when you think you have no more to give, When a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
	I Believe... That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
	I Believe... That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.
	I Believe... That you should send this to all of the people that you believe in.  I just did.

Well, summer is coming to an end...... First Grayson left the nest and now school starts Wednesday!~!

Well, summer is almost over.  I can not believe it already.  I sure hope the school year goes by just as fast.  Went to the Doctor and I have lost 27 pounds since July.  I am super excited about that but, have a really long hard road ahead.  But, I can do this.  I have to start reading labels.  I am so not a label reading kinda gal.  But, I will to keep on track.  I am very scared about Young Dylan going to the middle school but, he must do.  I wish he could go to SMS but, HGMS it is.  I was telling them that is was going to be different for everyone.  I am always so sad when they go back for the first few weeks.  Being here all alone.  *SIGH*  Miss SkyeNina is ready for Mrs. we know and I told her if she yells at her once just once to tell her in a very nice way that you really don't want my Mom to come up here because, she can be in the 20 seconds or less.  Little Dude is super excited about having Mrs. Hitt.  I know it is going to be a wonderful year.  Young Dylan has some really neat teachers and some pretty tough classes but, he will do fine.  He is taking Spanish so he can tell me what is Dad is saying LQTM!~!~!~ Thank you Mom for coming over today and sitting with your grands while, I went to the Doctor, if I had known the Boss would be home you could have just stayed home.  We all know the Boss is not thinking clearly these days.. so not LMAO!~!~! I have been doing a lot of thinking about so many things lately, I know it scares me too.. tee tee!~!~  I am going to go to the school board probably on Wednesday right after I take them to school and sign them all up for SMS next year and then for the following years.  It is simply stupid to be zoned to HGMS when I live 4 blocks from SMS.  But, I guess it is in all who ass you kiss well, I am not fond of ass kissing unless it is totally necessary.. LMAO!~!~!  Well, I think I will fold the clothes and clean the bathroom and do the dishes and hell I might even paint the living room while I am at it... OH GESSSSH!~!~!

Do you ever think that people are stupid or just ingorant.......

As, Todd Chrisley would say irgorance can be fixed stupid is forever...... LQTM!~!~ Today, I feel lost I have so much on my mind sometimes, I don't know if I am coming or going.  I am lost in my feelings about a lot of things.  I have not always been the best person, but I know in my heart that I am a very good hearted person.  I have lost so many friends and family.  I had to stop and say I will no longer be your door mat, your bank, your call me when you need something and screw you when you need something.  I can only trust a few people and I am grateful for them.  People don't have to be blood to be family.  I thought that for so long and I am slowly finding out that sometimes complete strangers are nicer to me than blood.  It is sad to say but, true!!~!~  I just sit back and say are people that really stupid or ingorant.  I do and do and sometimes I want someone to say Laurajean is there anything I can do for you today or how are you feeling or are you ok.  All these fakes want to be's have got to go!~!~!  I always get my feeling hurt very easy and I am sick of it.  I guess I will have to start acting like others and maybe then "I" will get some freaking campassion.  I might be too sensitive or maybe argumentative at times but, DAMN....... I am just like "OK"........  I don't like when someone if different one day and then totally all sweet and precious the next day.  Just be REAL....... So, today that is what I feel.

Aretha Franklin ft. Michael McDonald - Ever Changing Times

TODAY I SNAPPED!~!~!~!~

Today, I finally snapped!~!~ It was a long time a coming!~!~  I am no longer concerned about what people think of me and I am no longer worried about people who are not in my area or on my leg!!  I need to start living for Laurajean!~!  It is what it is!~!~!~  I AM SO DONE!~~!~!!~ And, if you don't like it I am sorry you must have mistaken me for someone who gives a SHIT~~!~!~!~   :)

If I Had Only Known

If only~!~!!~! I love you Gramps today and always!~!~! I think of you every minute of everyday. I miss you so much!! Thank you for loving me and always being there for me and The Boss and the kids. You would be so PROUD of the Boss we are almost there but, I know you already knew that anyway :') I still am finding my pennies from heaven!~!~!~ Don't give up on me!~!~!~ your favorite, KIDDO

Gramps, I love you today and ALWAYS!~~!~! I miss you DEEPLY!~!~!~

Gramps, I can not believe it has been a year already.  It seems like yesterday that we were enjoying the time we would spend together.  Our talks two times a week, some times more when you would call out of blue and surprise me.  Not, a day goes by with me thinking about you and missing you so much it hurts.  I know you would not want me to be sad and I am trying but, I miss you.  You were my friend, my Gramps, my HERO, my wise man who know just what to say and how to say it.  I miss your smile and your small laughter and your smell.  I miss seeing you wave to me when I would leave and smile and blow me a kiss.  I loved you like no other.  It was so hard watching you be so sick and trying so hard to be brave for me.  When you decided to turn off the machines and go I was so sad and I thought I would never make it without you.  I wanted to crawl in the bed with you and never let you go.  You grabbed my hand and told me how sorry you were and to not be sad and to "FORGIVE YOU for leaving me".... Everything, seemed like it was so unreal and slow motion.  I could not understand what everyone was saying.  No one can understand how much I miss you and you told me not to cry when you were gone.  I took care of you for so long it was so hard to let go.  You and I went through a lot of things together.  I know in my mind you held on a little longer to make sure I was CANCER FREE.  I loved taking you to the store and watching you shop made me laugh because, you were so fast and I will never forget when I could not find you and at the point you had lost your hearing so, I could not have them all call you.  I was out of breath and lending up against a pole and a lady said are you ok, I said I think, I lost my Gramps in here somewhere and then you came around the corner smiling, talking really loud because, you could not hear and said let's get out of here KIDDO!~!~  I miss our times and your hugs.  I hope you are ok.  I hope you are watching over me and I hope you are proud of me.  The kids miss you.  The Boss still goes by to see Dr. Barringer something I can not do.  He does call once in a while.  When we leaving the house and it was so empty I watched the kids running around outside and I asked the Boss for a minute by myself, I was closing the French Doors and I turned to look back one more time and I swear I saw you and Gram standing there holding hands smiling at me and I could hear you saying "FORGIVE ME KIDDO", I am ok now.  It was a very very long hard week when you were in the hospital and then when it was time to go and you said let's do this...the ride to the end of life care the song DON'T came on and you said turn it up and blow the horns..... It felt like, I had been in a bad dream for days.  They got you all settled in.  I was rubbing your head and you would look at me and then close your eyes.  The sweet nurse came in to check on you and it had been such a hard and long day she asked if she could hug me and of course, I said yes.  She told you I look very very sad and very worn out and that I needed to leave so you could go.  I told her I can't leave him, she said you must he wants you to and then he will go and be your ANGEL forever.  I remember coming home and crying.  I took a hot shower crying so hard wanting to be there with you, and the Boss was sitting in there with me and I kinda fell into his arms and he said it will be ok.  I brushed my hair and put my head on my pillow and the phone rang.  It was the sweet Nurse from the Palms saying you were gone.  At first, I could not breath or move and when I was crying and screaming nothing was coming out it was so still and I could not hear anything....... I came back down until they came to get you and kiss you one last time.  I said goodbye...... I helped the sweet man who came to get you take you to the car.  He was so sweet but, nothing he was saying was making sense to me.  When he closed the door I jumped and he said are you ok, wiping away my tears.  I felt this warm feeling and he asked me did he want him to walk me to my car and I said no I have someone walking with me already, he smiled and said ok.  It has been very hard to move on but, I am trying.  Now, I dream of you!!!  I will see you again one day and you make sure you keep your promise and save my seat.  Watch over me like you promised.  I think of you every minute of everyday.  I love you dearly and miss you so much!~!~  On a special note I would like to Thank the Boss and my Mother who helped me so much during this very difficult time not sure how I would have made it without you two.  Gramps, I will always be your KIDDO and your crazier than a shit house rat.  But, when you needed me I was there and that is something NO-ONE can ever take away from me.  I wish heaven was not so far away or I would pack up for the day just to see you once more.  I love you today and always and miss you!~!~ Your favorite KIDDO!~!~! And, as of today I have 407 pennies from heaven....... "~Just us 7~"    Seeeeeeeee ya!!!!!!!

3/12/2014 RIP Frank Gordon Haas My Dad, My Friend, Your Lovey!~!~

It is hard to believe that 9 nine years has pasted since you went away.  I often find myself wondering what you would be like today, if you had not had to leave this world.  I will think of something funny and I will go to the phone only to remember I can't call you anymore....  I am glad that we got to spend some really great times together before you left.  I will never forget coming down for Thanksgiving with Dylan for his first Thanksgiving with the Boss and Rusty.  We had so much fun with you!!~  I knew how much you would like the Boss, he can be a hand full sometimes but, he loves me with his whole heart and when you asked him if he truly loved me and he said yes, I saw the way you looked at him and smiled and winked at me.  I will always remember me winning that pool game we played and how you hugged me and held me like it would be the last hug I ever got from you.  In a way it was because, after that you got sick.  I tried my very best to take care of you when you were sick.  I will in my heart never forgive or let go of  "Patty" having you Barker Acted and  and leaving you all alone to die by yourself, in that cold dark room.  But, your KID came and got you out you can bet that.  I will never forget the look on your face when I told the lady at the front desk we can do this the easy way or the hard way.  And, you smiling back at me saying that there is my daughter, my KID, my lovey!!!!  I miss you and your sense of humor and all your BS (insider) No one could BS like you!~!  I kept my promise I made to you and took care of your Father until the very hard end.  I can not believe how many losses we have had in this sad month of March.  You, Mom's Dad's birthday 3/2/2014 he would have been 108 and The Boss' Mom passed away tomorrow 3/13/2014 and then my Gramps, my hero, 3/22/2014.  Let's just say March is not a fun month!~!  I can enjoy the memories and smile and laugh and cry all in minutes. I hope you are having fun every where you are and that you are watching me from afar saying that is my KID and look at all she has been through and she is still standing and smiling and crying inside also.  But, I want you to know I would go back and do it all over again all of it, "For you"!~!~ I love you Dad!~!~  I hope to see you again one day!~!~  I dream of you often and think of you all the time, I will never forget you...... And, remember the GRIN DID WIN!~!~!  "LQTM"  I miss you and love you with all my heart!~!  I wish you could have been here to see SkyeNina and Grayson but, I am grateful you did get to see me have Dylan!~!~!  I thank "GOD" for that............ Remember, I "SO GOT THIS"......................

Happy 108th Birthday Granddaddy aka Col. Daddy........

Today, would have been my Granddaddy's 108th birthday.  I know if he was alive he would not believe how this world has changed.  The first thing I think he would say is there is a BLACK PRESIDENT.... LQTM..... He is probably turning over in his grave right now saying are you kidding me.  He called me "HOT SHOT"...... And every summer we went to see them over the summer. I was always going to garage sales and going up to doors saying we were from out of town and could we come earlier.  I miss the smell of my Granddaddy.  Every time I smell Old Spice I turn to see who smells like my Granddaddy.  My Mom and him were very close and she tries to hide her sadness from her favorite most youngest daughter but, I know better.  I hope you are celebrating your 108th Birthday with my Gramps and Gram and Grandmomma (who made me eat pie LOL LOL) and all the other loved ones who are there with you!~!~! Happy Happy Birthday from your one and only "HOT SHOT"......... :') I love you!!~!~!~! This was posted today but, would not post on Sunday like it should have but, I finally got it.  His 108th birthday was Sunday March 2, 2014...... I guess I can not back date like others......

The good thing about TODAY......

It is almost over yes, I said it and I will say it again it is almost OVER!~!~!  OMG, I feel like I am on a roll coaster going around and around without stopping.  Not, only that I don't even like to ride those kind of rides anymore.  Now back in the day I did.  I talked to more people today than I have in the last two weeks.  But, somehow someway I will finish what I have started.  I did have a great few laughs with my Mom she can always cheers me up and brings me back to earth.  She has been doing that a lot lately.  We laughed our butts off at the guy last night on Jeopardy with the happy finger on the button I thought I would wet my pants.  Gotta, keep that sense of humor it is critical... LQTM.  I am sadden by some people I thought I could count on but, they let me down again and I will never get over it and me saying it was not going to bother me was just a plain out LIE.  But, they say you can always tell who your real friends are when you need something important.  Some were very shocking I will not mention their names because, that would be indiscreet and my Mother taught me better.  Now, if I was Arthur I would be laughing and saying "Susan Johnson".  But, as this day comes to an end I know where I am going and it is always good to remember where I have been. Plus, always remember you can't always depend on that light, LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Happy 75th Anniversary to you Gram and Gramps.......

Today, would have been my Gram and Gramps 75th Anniversary...... I miss them both so much and I love them more than I ever thought I could.  I never imagined my life without my Gramps but, GOD had other plans for you.  I wish I could pack up for the day if heaven was not so far away. I hope that you and Gram are dancing cheek to cheek and smiling down on me and the kids and the Boss and My Mother.  Gram never got to see me have children and I know she would have loved them so much she, was such a loving woman!~!  I think about all the stories Gramps talked about on your first date and you went to a flicker show as you called it.  You said you had a quarter and you talked about how scared you were because she was the prettiest thing you had ever seen.  You and Gram had the best time and you both got a soda and popcorn and you still had a nickel left and you bought her a candy bar.  I always think about the memories you shared with me after she passed away.  And, you talked about her as she was still alive with such PRIDE and JOY.  I know how much you loved her.  I miss you both and hope that you are celebrating today and everyday!~!~  Please save my seat and never forget how much you both mean to me.  I love you today and always!~!~!  XOXOXOXO Happy 75th and many many more to come!~!  Your favorite, KIDDO!~!~!

This is something amazing and wonderful to hear..... :')

This is the Life

I really love this song................

It has been a while.................

I have been pondering and reflecting on so many different things lately, my mind seems to never shut down.  My Gramps would tell me he would start to do that very same thing right before he went to bed and it drove him nuts.  Well, I do it all day every single day seems like every second is filled with something else.  I got my second tattoo and I love love love it!~!~! Got some really neat things for Valentine's Day from the Boss will post pictures.  I have not been sleeping but, after this I am going to bed for sure.  I am worn out.

I guess you can say I am a bit SPOILED!~!~!~

Yesterday was my Gram's Birthday!~!~!~!

I so often find myself thinking of her and my Gramps a lot!~!~!~  Missing them both so much is so hard for me~!~!  It has been so long since Gram has been gone but, I never go without saying Happy Birthday to her in Heaven!~!~!~!  I have been thinking about my Gramps a lot lately missing such a wonderful Grandfather and friend and buddy and loving man.  I have been dreaming about him a lot lately, it is always the same dream I am sitting in my chair and the phone will ring and it will say across the screen Frank P. Haas and I smile and get up to answer it and then no-one is there then I wake up and get out of bed and get something to drink always crying for him and then, I most always find a penny :') and then, I go back in my room and rub his box and go back to sleep and say I hope you and Gram are celebrating her birthday together and dancing to something wonderful.  I tried and tried to post this post yesterday but, my Mother got a new computer and even though it makes me laugh she knows now just how hard windows 8 truly is and my cousin Debra told me windows 8 was a devil in sheep's clothing I laughed so hard since, I was given such a hard time about my getting Windows 8.  My Mom is now dealing with what I was dealing with the devil in windows 8 I told her it was not pretty and she laughed and got so mad, I made SEVERAL TRIPS to her house to help and she tells me I have no PATIENCE!~~!~! LQTM.........  But, I wish my Gram a very very Happy Birthday and many more to celebrate with my Gramps and keep watching over me and my family.  I miss you both and love you both so much!~!~!~!  Some say that I need to move on and start living again and I try but, I always go back to the same thing, thinking about the last week I got to spend with him and how much I learned about him and how much I know he truly loved me like no other.  Give Gram a kiss for me and I know you have my name on my sit right next to you.  I know you both are always with me everywhere I go!~!~!~!  HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY Gram!!~!~!~!

Went to the back specialist and he wants to do surgery.

We went to Lakeland today to see my back specialist and he wants to do surgery on my neck ASAP and I told him I would talk it over with my regular Doctor Dr. Brace in the morning for my regular monthly appointment.  He said the bones in my neck are crumbling like crackers which he said is why is goes all the way down my spine and into my legs and hips.  I went through so many surgeries last year I am just not sure I can do another one.  I can always get a really cool neck brace and put a bunch of gems on it and SkyeNina can color it and I am sure no-one would even notice it!~~!~  It was so not the news I was hoping for but, at least I can still walk and talk and move around maybe, not as fast as I could before but, Thank GOD I am able to get up and go with a smile...... Ok time to get cracking on these 5 baskets of clothes that are looking at me saying hey lady I am not going to fold these myself you know..... Sweet Dreams my Peeps!~!~!~!~!

Why do people make excuses and really don't care about the outcome.....

Lately, I have been asking myself why do people make excuses and don't care about the outcome, oh wait, I know because they DON'T CARE...... I am sick of excuses!~!~!~! Don't you ever feel in your life that life is too short and you should try and love and care about the ones you say you care and love do darn much..... I have been so angry and bitter lately with people that make excuses, it is getting old.  I will say this LOVE THE ONES YOU TREASURE BECAUSE, GOD WILL WANT THEM BACK ONE DAY..... Then what are you going to do make excuses??????  Just saying!~!~!~

2014 another Year Let's hope it is an AMAZING ONE.....

Years come and go by so fast these days... I often find myself saying where in the world does the time go.  I have been watching my children grow up so fast it is like warp speed..... I want them to stay little at home with me and stop growing up so fast.  I watch many friends come and go some come for a reason, some only come for a season.  I have decided this new year that my daughter and me are going to lose weight together as a team.  I in my heart know that she is over weight because of me and a lot of stress from her brothers... LOL!!!  But, I would hate like hell to go to PRISON for someone hurting my daughter for any reason.  Dylan and Grayson are like ok, we can eat from the time we come home until the time our head hits the pillow and remain a good weight.  I, in my mind would love to keep her fluffy because then she won't want boys to like her and I am not ready to be a Grandmother for any reason.  But, enough excuses we are going to do this as a team "girls rule".  Now, on a different note, I am going to try very hard to mind my own business and try very hard not to care what people think of me.  I am going to try to understand it is not always about how I want to be treated and think I should be treated who am I to say someone who treats me a way that they are not ok with.  I will try be more patience (Ok, Mom stop laughing) with those who are maybe having a hard time and don't want to share or talk about things.  I know in my heart and mind that I have always been a caring person and let's face it that will not change but, what will change is how I understand and care for those on their time.  I have had more sadness in 2013 then one person should be aloud in a lifetime. I have been grieving for my Gramps for so long I think I lost myself somewhere along the way.  I miss him so much very day that is seems the pain will never end but, I know that is not want he wanted for me to do.  I promised him I would be ok and I would dislike to know that I am disappointing him in anyway.  I now have 239 pennies I find them everywhere he told me when you find a penny it is from me from heaven when I see one I always cry and say a penny from heaven!!!  What I would love the most is for my family to have an amazing year and lots of laughter and lots of love and HAPPINESS!~!!~  Some things need change and others don't need change at all they just need space and a little time to figure things out and make the best choice for them and I will always support their choice whether I agree or not, it is none of my business.  I just need to let them be who they are and I will be who I am.  So, here is to another year 2014 and I KNOW it is going to be AMAZING for everyone!~!~!