Mitten Moo Guzman

This is Mitten Moo aka Ding Dong aka Jitter Bug she is our newest family member after losing Snooks I thought I would never get another cat but I went to Petco to return somethings as after the lose of Snooks we also lost Baby JJ a tiny little hamster we loved dearly and when I went to just look at kittens there she was she was meowing at me and the lady said to me you know she had been there 3 weeks and nothing not playing or meowing now she had 4 brothers and sisters to lounge about but she seemed lonely as I after suffering a great lose of my bestest friend Missy Snooks.  I asked the lady if I could hold her and she starting loving on me and meowing and when I started to cry she licked my tears and our eyes met and the lady said shall I get her papers I say happily of course she is a GUZMAN now... I have not been able to get a really good picture of her yet as she is FAST Granny said to name her Flash... But she is now happy and Wooshie has warmed up to her after a little while. But I am glad we have her and I know Missy Snooks had me in mind for her the moment I saw her... Thank you Missy Snooks even though I still cry for you as Wooshie does.... Wooshie gets up where Snooks would lay and circles the area and meows for her still and it breaks my heart but she and Mitten Mooand they will become the best of friends......... I miss you Snooks!~!~!~! :')

Today it was a MIRACLE.....

I have been waiting so long to receive such a MIRACLE as today.. It has been a long 3 years and the last 6 months have nearly off me and my MOTHER and my family... But today 2/22/2013 I am CANCER FREE AMEN!~!~!  I have that huge spot on my neck which we all knew but for right now I will control with Doctor's care and a pill now and then and let my body be FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... :0) It was a awesome day.... I love you all that stood by me and loved me and hated me when I was a BITCH and I was a BITCH at times.. but now I will look at things more clearly calmer sweeter softer special and loving... I have some wonderful people in my life and I would not change a thing..... I did not spend all that time in the shower crying and being on my knees for nothing.... I got what I truly prayed for MY MIRACLE....

TESTING 1, 2, 3..............

CAN YOU READ THIS BLOG NOW MOMMIE DEAREST I do not know what it worse this or HARRY..................... LMFAO!~!~!~!~!~

Happy Valentine's Day...

We as being the grands dressed in Granny's favorite color for her "RED".... I even got and new cute back ground and changed things up a bit.... I think I really like it.  Things have been moving really fast for me and things are getting put on hold and things are being pushed aside.  I have been feeling like a scared caged rabbit who has the door wide open but yet scared to go outside the cage due to fear and hurt.  I am not saying I am prefect by all means but sometimes you try to do things you think are right for you at the time and wind up hurting the ones you love so deeply but after all is said and done "BLOOD IS THICKER THAN WATER" and should be just that.  We all can not be happy all the time of every single minute of every single day.  I cry in the shower every night just so no one will ask me why... I hurt so deeply that my heart is torn apart.  I may smile and say oh "YES" I am ok how can I help you today.  But what I really want, need, is someone to walk up to me and wrap their arms around me and say hey I am here and I love you more than today than I have ever loved you before.  There are a lot of things going on in my life I want to hide and scream and sometimes I want to pack what all I can in my car and move far far far away.  But then I think about The Boss, My Mom, My Grandfather, My BBS and say what would I do without them... I have seen my Mom go through so many different things with me in the last 6 months than any Mother should have to go through in a lifetime.  Sometimes I feel so guilty and ashamed that she carries such a heavy load with all my health problems not to mention all the other problems but she always smiles and says BREATHE just BREATHE Laurajean is will be ok.  I was so lonely today so she came over just for me.... I think we both needed to feel loved and even though we did talk a lot and we laughed a lot and I even cried when she was not watching me watch her.  She is a GIFT one I hope I never have to give away or let go.  I love you Mom.  The kids got her a ROSE each and made the neatest cards for her and of course after I thought some families can not give the ones they love anything or see them or touch them or smell them they are only memories for them I can not think of what I would do without my family.  I am so blessed to have been given a second, maybe third probably even a forth chance at happiness.  I often ask myself do I deserve all this and for someone who had done some many awful things and so many awesome and amazing things I always come up with the same answer "YES I DO"..... Today was a new day and it takes baby steps sometimes to make a WONDERFUL PERSON.... Today I am that person.....  I worked every hard at it and I will continue to work hard at it I deserve it and so do the ones I love deeply...... :')