DAYS...............................

 

Some days are better than others, some days I barely can get out of bed, some days I cry all day, some days I smile and laugh, some days I can not figure out what to do next, some days are just days pasting by, some days are so hard, some days I wish I could see all the loved ones I have lost along the way, and some days are just that DAYS.......

Trying to start living again instead of just "EXISTING"........ GOD promise me you will give me a chance......

I have been thinking about so many difficult things lately somewhere along the line I have forgotten about the ones who stood by me in this very difficult time in my life.  I am grateful to everyone that stopped by or called or texted, asking if there was anything I needed but, I just want to pick up the pieces and keep moving forward.  I feel like it is going to be a good day and then something else comes in the mail and it goes from ok now what do I do with this.  Some days I dislike even going to the mailbox but, I must as my Mother said stop being sad and be happy that is what your Gramps would have wanted from you not sadness.  I cry and she hugs me and holds me tight and then I ask myself how someone so loving as my Mother be such a "GOD SENT GIFT"... to me and I think of just how lucky I am to have to "BEST MOTHER IN THE WORLD"... She gets me good and bad she truly gets me :').  I miss her so much and I know that I am not doing the things I should be doing like watching my kids play and hearing them laugh and just smile and hug them tight because tomorrow is never a promise.  I want to start living again instead of just existing.......  I miss my Sister she has not idea just how much and I miss Caroline and JS and all of us being together and sharing laughs and crying and being what family is all about... I miss Vicky a friend from Ohio who I have never met in my life and she has become such a huge part of our lives I would be lost without her and her family.  I miss Gina she is a nut but I love her and her talking to me for hours and when I say hours I mean hours.... I think I just need a day to lay around and watch old movies and not be awake at 3:30 am but I had fallen asleep so early and at 9:50 the Boss woke me up and said are you gonna get up and I thought I had only dozed off for a few minutes it was more like 5  hours.  My body is sore I have been walking a the TREADMILL... GOD BLESS my Gramps I have no clue how he did that but I am getting there at least I can turn it on without falling off now.... HEEHHEHEHEHEH.  Ok I just heard my buzzer on washer and now to do one more load and then catch up on those stupid soaps I love so much.  I am glad to see they FINALLY CAUGHT that sick POS that did the bombing I was so sick of hearing that all week and hearing all the sadness in this world.... :'( Makes you think what is this world becoming......

Houston we have lift off...... :0)

Today I got some news that I am happy about the papers have been signed now just need to scan them not sure how long that will take but at this point I don't care.  My Mom is having more problems with her little Tracker.... I feel so bad because who can even buy a car with the gas prices so freaking high, but she said it started up today I told her to start it everyday and let it run for a few and then shut it off and try to start again.  Dylan is doing the F-Cat which everyone knows what I think it should be against the law to put so much pressure on such young children.  But if my son makes all A's and B's all year round and is in the HAART program and if he does not score high enough they will not let him pass that is when the HOME SCHOOLING BEGINS.... No Kidding I am not joking. I think it is stupid to put such high standards on these young children making them sick and having panic attacks, passing out and stupid shit... GOOD LORD I could go on and on but I will not.. Only 3 more days of testing thank goodness... :0)  I am so proud of all of them they all got all A's and some B's and all S's and O's for little dude.  I am blessed.  Only 35 1/2 more days until sum-sum-sum summer time.... Who's with me.... HECK YEAH!~!~!  My BBS is graduating in May I am so proud of her too and she is going to find the right job at the right time and then she can start working on my book just think how rich we will be lmao~!~!  Granny said that Miss Ellie has been a bad girl knocking over plants and hiding but kittens like to have fun and she loves Granny and I think that is what Mom needed was some fun in her life god knows we need it.  Ok well the buzzer on the dryer went off so that means I can fold those and then go back to sleep.... Sweet Dreams.... :0)

Yesterday was busy busy busy..... :/

Yesterday I was so so so busy I swear I did not sit down until after 5:30 and had been up since 3:00 am I have so much shit on my mind and I need to stop because it is keeping me from getting better.  I took my Mom to get her surgery done on her eye she was higher then a Georgia pine I was laughing at her asking me where are my glasses do I have them on and then I had to take Miss Ellie to get her nails cut because she would not let me do it and I had tried three times and then to take to get into the cat box OMG.... Then she got out of the box on the way.  I told my Mom I was kicking her ASS big time.  Then I had to go take money out of my kids saving which pisses me off to pay my Wal-Mart payment because I am POOR..... :'(  and then I had to go get my glasses so that I can see better then it was time to get the kids.... WHEWWWWWW it was a day.  Then my Mom calls me and says did I loot the little yellow dog that Miss Ellie plays with and then she was crying for it and she could not see to find it so we all went over to find the yellow dog and The Boss found the dog and Miss Ellie was one happy kitten.... Today I am going to Lake Wales to get  the carpet cleaned and then put the house on the MARKET.... I can not do it for sale by owner not today to much I have already done for Gramps Estate and doing all the leg work and I said what I am paying Cliff the big bucks for.. So, from this point on the only thing I will be doing is opening up an Estate account and closing Citizens Trust account... That would be all folks... I am so DONE of DOING EVERYTHING.... I mean it... Ok Off I go I must get there and mow and turn on the water to get that carpet done... It will be a busy day again but tomorrow is FRIDAY thank you GOD..... :)

Today my Mom is having surgery on her eye then we will await the next appt... O-O

Today I am taking my Mom to get her eye surgery done we have to be there a little after 7:00 so I thought I would get up a little early and get a few things done... Playroom check, Lots of toys for ones that don't have any check, Did it while the kids are sleeping because when I do it when they are awake it is oh wait that is my favorite toy ahem yeah not happening.. check!!! Dishes done, The Boss uniforms ready for today because we will be going out of town on Thursday check, SkyeNina's homework done for the week check, Clothes out for the rest of the week check, folded two loads of clothes check, now waking up the Boss to go to make me some MONEY check.... :0) I am so glad that I am able to do something for my Mom she has really been doing a lot for me and the Boss and the kids so I know she is a little scared so I will stay there with her just in case she needs me... I hope that she will not be to out of it I can't handle out of it from her the last time I did that she was trying to lite a cig and the lighter was no where near the cig so I had to lite it for her I thought good LORD must she smoke while under the influence... LMAO... Anyway I got a lot done and I am still so sick I looked at my throat and it is covered with all that white shit.... GROSSSSS.  I did get some really exciting news yesterday all my babies are doing excellent in school. If only Poor Dylan did not have to take the unjust and stupid F-CAT I would be much better starts next week... GRRRRRRR..... :/  Now I am off to help the BOSS get ready for work... I am such a awesome wife and a favorite youngest daughter..... I feel needed and I love that..... Later Peeps.... :0) Have a wonderful day`!~!~!

a few good days....

First we need to welcome a new family member to our list and that would be Miss Ellie.. A kitten 4 months old that I got for my Mother because she got another cat named Joanie and she got her for 5 day and my Mom never even saw her so I told her to call back the lady and to come get the hiding cat and then surprise her with Miss Ellie... She looks almost exactly like Wooshie.. She is so sweet and cute and My Mom was happy she has been happier since she got her... I tried to tell her and warned her that older cats sometimes have issues which of course they and we all do.. But I think I got the right one for my Mother.... :0)  I seems excited and a littler happier now.  She got my kids from school today as the Boss and I had something to take care of.  It turned out wonderful we are hoping for it to continue... I will not speak about it because GOD knows who reads my blogs LQTM... But just know we FEEL GREAT at this point and time.  I am sick yet again which pisses me off but shoot what can I do.. I am so tired I can not sleep it is 4:35 am I am about to start dusting and then maybe I can breathe somewhat.. HEHEEH  A special note to my BBS thank you for stepping it up and keeping close touch with me since Gramps passed away and for texting me A LOT it helps. I love you and them.. To my Mother a special thank you for helping me out so much on all the things I have been doing and for helping with the GRANDS if they could have it their way you would be picking them up daily LMAO....  THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU... :0) I have so much more to talk about but I want to watch the soaps and then wait for the sun to come up so I can get it done... rolling up rugs for the Boss to wash and dusting the house and mopping these floors.. Ahem sure am... I am grateful to have such a wonderful and simply awesome Mom and a BBS that has by back and is doing her thang gonna be get of out college soon so proud of her.  I love you both and extras and pets... XOXOXOOXOXOX :0) Today was a really GOOD DAY... I have not been able to say that in a while... bwhahahhah Getting there I think.....

Thursday and rainy and wet...

Boy we got a really good rain last night and seems to be going to rain all day.... We sure do need it around here.... Spoke with Dr. Barringer this morning and he said they got 3 inches and that Gramps passing was finally in the paper.  He asked me how I was I told him I was doing a little better and he could hear me trying to hold back my tears he told me it was ok and if I needed anything to let him know.  He said the couple that is working on his computer system to work is really wanting to buy Gramps house but I am just not ready yet to let it go.  I have until August that is when the insurance with end and I think I will just hold on for a little while... I am heading to the Dr. again today to get my med's and talk about this cough I have that really hurts.  My Mom is having surgery on her one eye next week and then they will do the other one a week or two later.  I feel so bad for her she got another CAT and it just is not working with her either.  I told her she needed a kitten and to stop with the older cats.. I know it is hard but I just might have to surprise her with a little something something... She is hurt I know I am so sorry that she has gone through two cats that have not worked out.  I think she would love a kitten more because older cats just have a past that might not be so special and you never know what to do with an older one.  We have a blast with mitten moo.. she is fun and wooshie and her are best friends we took mitten moo to get fixed and wooshie was mean to her for a couple of days and now it is back to normal.  The Boss and I have been together for 17 years today he goes by when we met not by when we got married.... LMAO.... We don't always see eye to eye and we have some really bad times and some really good times but I love him with everything I have.  I know GOD created him just for me.  We are going to go over to Granny's this weekend and help her dust that house she can not do that alone and since the eye surgery must be dust free we are going to get it done... Ok must run and get to my appt and then come back and do a few things not many might even dust my house today not promising anything but maybe... LQTM..... I hope everyone has a wonderful day.  And tomorrow is a really big day only a few know what I will tell after I get the news until then you will just have to wonder... BWHAHAHHAHAH :)