Ok well I have an Anniversary coming up...

Me and the Boss have an Anniversary coming up and I have to say I love him as much as I did 13 years ago but we have been together for 15...... He is a good man.  He gets on my last nerve but I would not give him up for anything well..... Nope nothing... Sunday is the big day I told him not to buy me anything but since we got three numbers on the lottery this week and won a $150 dollars I told him he could get me a candy bar... He knows my favorite kind BUTTER FINGER baby... :0) I love you JGU..... aka The Boss....

Pictures after surgery tried to add but it said not today..

I tell you that red stuff is from that tap that stupid nurse put on there from my chin to my BOOBS... I ripped my skin off.... :/ It hurt hurt hurt.... But I feel 90 % better today then I did on December 12th 2012...

Yes I am catching up on the blogging thing..

Well it has been two weeks since my surgery and I feel good and my scar looks better then it did before the last one did in August of 2011... I feel better and it was hard at first but I said I was going to be strong and get through this with flying colors.... Well that came to a quick stop once we went back a week later to see the wonderful Doctor... Dr. Vanterpool is the best Doctor next to Dr. Victor.  We are all in shock from the news that I have cancer but I am not going to let this get me down not me I cried a lot at first my Mom turned a color white I had never seen before and said I need a cig I said wait for me I think I need a cig too.. LQTM... But as life deals us a hand we don't like we can choose to throw in back in or kept that hand and play until you get some better cards... :') I went to see Dr. Dill which I will have you know was one of the most HANDSOME Doctor's I have ever seen and I have seen MANY MANY MANY.... He was so kind and told me what I could do and what he thought I should do and my bestie Catherine Young went with me.. We have had our differences but she was there every single time I needed her when my Mom had other things to do.  People tell me not to trust her she is two faced and she is a loony but I trust her fully.  She was there when I needed her and I was there when she needed me and I have never heard anything I have told her from anyone else.  She is my bestie... I love her dearly.  She has issues but who doesn't... She took notes and asked questions so that I could give my Mom and family details in full.  She looted some candy and we laugh because she knows I was very scared.  And then we flirted with the Doctor and he was smiling from ear to ear, but when I left I felt at peace... I am going to beat this I have come way to far to go out like this... I am strong, brave and I am a Mother of three amazing children I have husband I love to dislike.. LQTM I have two cats that love me I think they are just using me for tuna.. LQTM... I have a BBS and one special nephew and one special niece and family in SC and friends I did not even know I had... So today I want to THANK YOU ALL for being there and loving me and showing me what true love is all about and I tell you I know that I am loved... :0) I hope to hear from Doctor Dill that was his name today if not I am going to call him and then make my appointment with Dr. Diamond in Winter Park and Cat is going with me she knows exactly where to go she has been there done that.  I HOPE AND PRAY AND MIRACLE.. that I only have to go once.. No wait I know GOD is only going to make me go once... I can feel it.. :0)

Through the good and bad...

Well I have now had my second surgery with My Mother in toe... She was very calm and she was there when I woke up and I remembered waking up this time.. It was not fun having surgery but it was so different at Florida Heartland then HRMC.... My Mom was great she did her best and tried not to cry but she was so tried and she was going to Orlando that weekend to see my BBS and her grands there. She went and got me stuff for my neck and then some favored ice and then called me and said I can not get my TRACKER to start I thought she was joking because I was teasing her on my way home Thursday night about finally 8:15 it was a long two days and said how am I suppose to get to your house I said ok wait there I will be there now taking the kids to school was not that bad but driving to Publix the day after me losing so much blood and being higher then a Georgia Pine I made it to her and people were looking at me like I was CRAZY and my hair was like ok let's not go there and I was in my little blue night gown from my Mother see through I am sure of it because people were going are you kidding me lady and the huge neck cover was the topper... LMAO.. And then there she was just waiting.  I called The Boss and he said he would get off early since she was leaving tomorrow and took her to get a new battery cause hers was a goner... and checked her oil and tire pressure and filled up the little TRACKER and even fixed her window... But I tell you that day I could not figure out what was worse her driving my car nearly killing us more times than I can count or her dead battery.. But we all made it home in one piece.... She was so funny behind that wheel of my car I pee'd myself more than once I am sure.. She did also... But I tell you what SHE IS THE BEST THING I KNOW... She took charge and helped me like no other.  I Thanked her over and over but it never seemed to be enough. She even made us dinner two nights in a row Chicken and yellow rice and Chili.. my two favorite meals.. So again Mom I love you and thank you so much for all you do, did, done and doing always for me and my family. You are a keeper I tell you... But I swear you can NEVER drive my car AGAIN.... LMAO... :0) I love you Mom.... And from the bottom of my heart you are the BEST MOM EVER... Get the puffs....

Christmas Eve and just us "6"......

We did not even sneak a picture in of The Boss this year.... he would have had the box or blanket or something on his head but he was very busy putting Granny's new Flat Screen Monitor she got from Victor Newman in her computer room/mine and Fran's old bedroom... She really really likes it and The Boss even cleaning up some of the stuff on the icons so it does not take her an hour for her computer to start up... LQTM... We had so much fun Granny got the all snacks down to a tee and we ate almost everything and boy did the Grands get everything that they wanted :0) They always do.  She spoils her grands and they all love it, nothing like Granny in the whole world.  She got a Christmas dinner from Bob Evans talk about yummy I think we will do that every single year... It was awesome.  I got a neat frame and some pot holders Mom said I needed some new ones big time... tee hee and I got ink for printer and a neat shirt scrubs that I love so much because it has lots of pockets.  And I got a new calendar that has really big spaces for me to write on meaning all my appointments LMAO.. And The Boss she really got him this year she wrapped up like 5 boxes inside each other and he was laughing and he got some gift cards to his daily second home... LQTM... We had so much fun and being with my Mom and The Boss and my kids and watching them when they don't know I am watching makes everything in my heart feel warm and love lots of love.  Merry Christmas Just us "6"... 2012 until next year... This was one of the BESTEST CHRISTmas EVER.....  I love you all so much!!!!

WHEWWWWWW I am so DONE.... :) Don't HATE...

OK after running around this past week and this weekend I can say that I am finally DONE with everything that I need to have done.... CHRISTmas done, Gifts done, everything is done so now I can sit back and relax I have been feeling a bit stressed out lately everything makes me cry or pissed or both and what really pisses me off are STUPID PEOPLE... I have to sit back and ask myself how in the world can anyone be that stupid.... LQTM... I swear they are sitting at home and when I start the car they go ohhhhh Laurajean is going somewhere let's get going... LQTM.... It is going to be a small CHRISTMAS this year everything costs double what it did last year and the year before that... I swear I can not believe that a box of Lego's costs so much... and baby dolls are you kidding me.. If I get a baby doll I must help around this dirty house or she will stay her happy little ass at Wal-Mart... :) I still have not even posted for so long took me a while to log in.  A big shout out to my Mother for making Little Dude's birthday so special even if I went over the limit LMFAO.. He thinks he is so rich because TIA and Cuz's sent him $10 and his other TIA Vicky... $10 so he said that is twenty hot ass dollars right momma I could not help but laugh... Ok I am off to call DCF and see what the hell they want now... Well they are busy and will call back n the next twenty to thirty minutes so I will write a little more just for some humor... Went to Gramps yesterday and I swear he makes me laugh and we cry and then we laugh... He is so smart and I love the way he sees life... He said even though he can't see he plays around with things in his mind.. I helped him peel his potatoes and he said I be damn you peeled them just like I would have which helped him because it usually takes him about 2 hours and I did it 10 minutes he said can you come back twice a week and we laughed... It is so neat watching him move around and talk. He told me I was skinny enough now but still needed to work on a little bit more but I got some FUDGE... :) When I look at him sometimes when he does not know I am looking at him I see such an amazing Man... I love him dearly but he is so ready to die it makes me sad but he has been saying the same thing for almost 13 years now.. I told me if I die I will call and leave a message.. I laughed. The kids only have 11 1/2 more days until winter break we are not ALOUD to say CHRISTmas break good LORD... See I am telling you it is the little things... LQTM... Ok I will turn on some sounds and await my call back... I hope you all have a wonderful week.. I love you all and remember Santa is still waiting.... I wrote Santa and told him look you know I have been bad this year so let's cut to the chase and just give me peace and I will be one HAPPY LADY... :)

This is from Kim Campbell I thought everyone needs to read....

Married or not... You should read this:

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.



Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.



She didn't seem to be annoyed by m...y words, instead she asked me softly, why?



I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!



With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% estate of my company.



She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said, for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.



The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.



When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.



In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.



This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into our bridal room on our wedding day.



She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door every morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.



I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions.. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.



My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.



On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young anymore. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.



On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.



On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.



She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.



Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.



Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.



But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.



I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.



She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us part.



Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.



At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The sales girl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us part.



That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.



My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband...



The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. DO have a happy marriage!!

SkyeNina and I ....

SkyeNina and I are going to our first birthday party for her friend in school she is super excited and she is getting ready and to see her smile warms my heart.. She is so shy and I thought she would not want to go but to my surprise she said yes.. I think my little girl is growing up on me... Happy Days for all... :0)

Super excited....

I was not going to blog anymore but I thought about it and said shit on it I am going to BLOG..... I will just keep it short and sweet and no drama and no information about the things I am doing or have been doing I will keep you laughing with little quotes and my special Laurajean's Giggles and that way no one will know anything about me unless I tell them... LQTM.... I am so so so so so did I say the word so ok I covered that... LMAO.... That I do not have to wake up early and do any homework or lunch's or backpacks or clothes for the week... I am one HAPPY MUTHER....... :0)  "9" whole days I can not wait did I say how excited I was tee hee Ok I gotta get things going and I have bills to pay.... OH that was like a slap in the face..... Later Ya'll...... :)~

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Been told I need to keep my business off here and Facebook.... So I guess I will be deleting this account too..... I guess what you say is not for some eyes.... God knows who is reading my BLOG... Oh My Lions, Tigers and Bears I don't think we are in Kansas anymore.....

a small but touching story.....get the puffs

Tuesday when I went to see Dr. Victor whom I enjoy dearly told him he would be going on vacation in Oct & Nov & Dec I told him yooooooo now wait where and what time should I be ready.  He laughed I truly like him can not understand why he is much different than is brother but then again aren't we all different from brothers, sisters, cousins, uncles, aunts, grandparents, mothers, fathers, friends...  After I went there I made my weekly visit to Publix and there in the store was this little old lady... She seemed to be confused and somewhat dazed I asked her excuse are you ok she turned around and said she could not remember what she was looking for I giggled and told her I always do that and she smiled at me and said hello dear who is that sweet little boy you have there I told her it was my son Grayson and that he was not feeling well.  She got a little choked up and asked if she could hug him I said sure now Grayson is not  much of a hugger unless you are his Bubbie or sis-a-roo or Momma or Daddie or of course his Granny.. He went over to her and gave her a really big hug... I started to cry a little but did not want him to notice and then we started to talk and she asked me how old he was and he said I am five going to be six soon we both giggled.  I asked her was she waiting for her husband or anyone said smiled and said I have no-one.... I thought why would she said no-one so I thought well I would be nosy as my Mother always tells me (LQTM) she said everyone in her family was gone.. Her husband had passed and that her daughter was killed in 9-11 and her son killed in the service and each of them had two children each 2 boys and 2 girls and that one weekend the husband of her Daughter and the Wife of the Son were all coming to visit and there was a awful traffic accident everyone was killed and now she was all alone... I thought to myself how awful for her to be so sweet and loving and be able to smile and be all alone.. I hugged her and said well now you are not alone you met me today and my son.. She smiled so bright...We continued to chat a little more and she said thank you for being my ANGEL today and your son is just so special he gave her another hug and so did I and told her she would never be alone again because I would see her again soon.... After walking away she said you must be my guardian angel I told her "YES" I am and then I turned around again to give her another smile and she was gone I thought to myself wow what a brave a strong woman.... I did not see her anymore during our shopping trip and Grayson asked me Momma where did that ANGEL go I thought and told him I was not sure son he said she was very old and very lonely maybe she lefted to go see her family I bent over and kissed him on the head as I cried a little and thought how much that one person made such an impact on my day.  Then it got me to thinking about all the people in my family The Boss & Dylan & SkyeNina & Grayson & My Mother, Gramps, Fran & niece & nephew & LP & Jeannie & Steve & Debra & Dawn & Denese & Diana and they families and husbands and their kids and their wives and children and I thought to myself I have all those people and even though we don't talk much anymore but sometimes get emails or a text or two... I found myself feeling so alone.. I know the families are supposed to be there for each other and help and talk and laugh and I thought I don't get much of that anymore... And that this sweet little old lady really had no-one but yet she seemed to be so happy... I know I have my kids and my Mother and the Boss and many more family member's but I felt alone.. I kept thinking about her all day which got me thinking her she had no-one and I have all these people in my life or do I????? I know I have "JUST US 6" forever (insider) but then later that day Grayson asked me can we go to Publix to see if we could find the ANGEL we met today and said honey she was not an ANGEL and he said yes she was Momma did you not see her again as we got done shopping and I thought "NO" son we sure did not so maybe I did met an ANGEL today.....  Family is the most important thing tell them you love them with everything you have and mean it when you say it not just to be saying it look them in the eyes so they know you mean it.. Love comes and goes and so does family.... I cherish my family but I often wonder how much do I mean to them.. I got my answer today when my Mother hugged me after our weekly her and I time.. That even when you feel so alone you should "ALWAYS" have someone to love and who loves you back no matter what... Here I have all these family member's and yet it is mainly "JUST US 6".... Thank GOD for that..... :')