I have no words to tell anyone how I feel and I would not wish what is going on to anyone I know and love...

Today, was one of the days that I wished maybe I would have over spelt or maybe got some wonderful news or someone who saw me crying my eyes out, asked if there was anything they could say or do for me to help me.....  Well, that so did not happen but, my Mother cut her lunch short with her gal pals to come to my rescue AGAIN... More bad news!!!!!  But, what else is new anymore.  I dislike even answering the phone anymore because, I am always crying or something else went wrong.  I just want one day for some one to call me and say hey Laurajean is there anything I can do for you today to help you or make you laugh or smile or ANYTHING....  Since the lighting strike and losing the whole AC unit and not having house insurance since 1997 until 2013 makes me so mad I could spit nails... Now mind you, I have had the same insurance company since 1997 and yes until present day and they told me that I did not make my payment so my policy was a GONER... I thought oh heck no you are kidding me well, they were so not kidding.  With everything that was going on this year losing Gramps, Snooks, Jack, Sasha, Abigator, Baby JJ and having cancer and being locked in my daughter's room for 5 days alone while I had to listen to my kids cry for me outside the door house insurance was the last thing on my mind and since they send everything to the underwriter's first and then me I thought I was crazy.    The underwrites are blaming the insurance company and the insurance company is blaming the underwriters...  The girl that I have been dealing with since 1997 Mandy and Candy were like Laura we did not get anything from them so, I thought ok then they would look at my history of payments since 1997 and say she always paid on time before time we will give her a break.  Well, that did not work out so well either.. I thought you POS's that is ok.  Not, only that I got a refund of every year because, I made them before the time was due I might add. Still nothing so I paid $3767.42 for a new AC unit and also paid my new insurance policy at the same time now I am so mad I can not stand it.  So, yes that was a lot to take it this week and then I go for the D&C and bleeding more now than I was before.  I clearly asked Dr. Rings before any med's were in my body once I got done if I bleed can I use tampons and he said yes.  Now, I have an infection which I will probably end up having another surgery on top of another one at that... My body is falling apart I say.......  "Alice, off with her head I say"...... Went to the eye doctor and he said your glaucoma is getting really bad in the left eye.  I said I could have told you that for free JERK....  So, back there in 3 months.  Waiting to see Judge Shinholser on Monday about the official name change thingy and then he sends Cliff a notice saying I need all the children's finger prints I thought are you kidding me and the Boss's too.  Cliff said this was going to be so easy in and out... YEAH... So, I had to take the kids to get that done today, which I am really not happy with but, it had to be done so it is.  And then, I went for ultrasound we will not even go there just know this, another yes you guessed it another surgery.  So, now that is it now at this moment 12:00 this day is over and I never have to see it again THANK YOU GOD.... I know that they say GOD does not give us more than we can handle but, I told him today ok enough already can you get off my back you are breaking my legs, I have paid my dues or should I say I thought I had but, my mother said maybe he is just wanting to show you one more thing... I thought long and hard about that and said, Tomorrow is never a promise, Try harder to understand why people are the way they are and they are not EVER going to change and keep my faith a little more, get down on my knee's and beg more, do more for people you care about... I am so worn out I can not think of anything I am not doing right but, maybe that is my problem I am trying to hard to please everyone who really don't not care or see what I am going through and say I will help you somehow someway.  For now, I am going to let go and let my mind and body and heart and tummy rest and let GOD do the rest because, I have no fight left in me at this point and time.  This is probably one of the longest blogs ever but, I felt good to get it out and just say what I wanted in my way and my time.... Thank you Mom for coming over and trying to heal your youngest favorite daughter but, I think a 2 by 4 is needed sooner than later... I appreciate you cutting your lunch short to help me out in my awful time of need.  I know it is not easy for you or me but, we got each other always "JUST US 7"....... I am going to go eat a bunch of candy I hide from the kids and watch tv and maybe since HBO is on I can find something to take my mind off overdrive...  Until I can figure out me....... and what to do, I will be reflecting and pondering on my next blog.... INSIDER Mom LMAO!~!~!~  Today, is a new day even if it feels like all my days are the same I will try my best to make it a GREAT DAY~!~!~!

OMG it never seems to end..... :'(

We went out to get something to eat the other night and it was raining a little something new and different.  I believe it has rained for at least 39 days straight.. So we got down the road and I thought shoot did a hurricane form and hit us with a direct hit or what.  I starting lighting like crazy and I and the kids were kinda scared and you could not even see through the window shield then we saw a bunch of fire trucks and cops and ER trucks racing everywhere... When we got home the house was filled with smoke and I thought shit is my house going to burn down.  It was coming from the attic.  The Boss got it out and we saw that our AC took a direct hit.  I was oh no not the AC but, it would have been much worse the house could have went up in flames and the sweet man that came over said we were blessed because a few minutes more and it would have been a destroyed home.  I thought someone is truly watching over us.. Thank you Gramps ;) I know it was you!~!~  Bad news is we have no AC and we spend the night at Granny's well Young Dylan and Miss SkyeNina stayed at Granny's HOTEL but, little Dude who was always begging Granny to come over and sleep at her house as soon as we got in the bed he started to cry for his Daddie.  I told Granny that the kids would call me and she would never even know what time they left.   She called me and said what time did you come get the kids I said 6:50 am she said I never heard a thing.  We both laughed.  Dylan and SkyeNina talked about it for 2 days and this morning again.  They had a blast with her.  Thank you Mom for doing all you can to help me out these days it seems like one thing after another and another and another.  I went and took all my blood work this morning and yeah yeah yeah!~! Now I am on a mission to call and find someone who will do and ablation on me and not just a D&C I am not sure that will help and I am not going to do two surgeries because I am thinking I will be doing another with the thyroid thing again so I am not doing three.... Ok, I am off to make some calls... Later Peeps.  I sure hope the AC guys get here pretty soon I am sick of this madness..... :(    Ps. My quote for today...  "Worrying does not take away tomorrow's troubles, it takes away today's peace"...... ljhg

Just us "7"........

I am no longer a virgin of the TAT world.... I got my first TAT today Sept 1, 2013 in memory of my Gramps and my family!~!~  There are so many more special people in my life but, Just us "7" has a special meaning for so many reasons and I could not think of a better why to show everyone so dear to my heart that is where they are.  We are going to spend the night at Granny's tonight as our AC got struck by lighting and we were very lucky to not have our house burn to the ground as we had gone to eat something for dinner as the storm came along.  A really neat man names Mike came over and said he had good news and bad news I said if it was that he could not fix my AC tonight he was not alone to come down from the ladder LMAO!~!~! He will be here bright and earlier to fix the rest but, I can not be hot..... Not today!~!~! So for now we are off the HOTEL GRANNY's this best place in town.... :)  Remember to smile, love, live, laugh and pray it is the only way and Just us "7" for life......

Well summer is over that is for sure.... I can not believe it....

This was one of those summer's where you ask yourself what really happened to all that time you spent hours together laughing and some crying and some drama but, in the end you know that you are doing what it takes to see your children smile.... We have had a lot of ups and downs this summer some wonderful, some awful, but, we did it as a family.  I know that things are not always easy in life but, you try your hardest to get up and do what it takes to make it through the day and think about all the people in the world who have it so much worse and are all alone.  I am THANKFUL every single day of my life for JUST US 7~!~!~! 

Places to go things to do oh geeezzzz

Ok, now that I have all my stuff done for the kids to start school... Don't Hate!~!~ But, seriously it was sad all the supplies they needed this year, I thought damn am I supplying the whole entire school or what??? It is sad because someone people just don't have that kind of money or don't care about it because sucker MOTHER'S like me buy all that shit...... Anyway, all has been bought and labeled and pack in their bags to go met teachers on the 15th.  We have so many different things going on in August and I hate to say it I wish it was over already and it has not even started yet.  But, we have to do what we have to do to get it done.  I have 8 different Doctor's appointments in August oh yeah!~!~  I have a feeling it will go by quick and easy but, I am praying the one appointment goes well very well.  I can not believe that summer is almost over.  It went by so fast and we never got to go any where fun or go do anything!!  But, we do have a nice pool and deck and we are having a blast.  I am going to fold two loads of clothes and then go to bed as I spelt all day long because the Dr. changed my med's around AGAIN.. I so dislike that but, that is the breaks when the change and thyroid and everything else is flipping out.  Go folks I will blog again this week I know you miss my blogs... LOL LOL ..... Later Taters!~!~!~!~!~!   :0)  ps. I am very truly blessed and grateful that Gina my Bestest Friend in the whole wide world will be coming down on the 6th and staying with us until the 8th just in case something should happen, I will let the ones who know what it is about after it is all over... Most of you know already.  Prayers are needed and greatly appreciated.  Final count on summer vacation days left:   21 now that is a sad sad number of days... I wonder what will become of those days.... Promises Promises!!!!!!!!!!! We shall see as they say!~!~!~!  LQTM....

After today it all seems sad and unreal......

Well, today seems to be very sad and unreal.  I can not believe it has been over 4 months since my Grandfather passed away.  It seems like yesterday I was going for weekly visits and running him around Publix losing him because he walked so darn fast.  And missing those three days a week calls to him to check up on him to see how he was doing.  Listening to his wise words of wisdom and thoughts and knowledge was amazing.  He brought such joy to my life, for so many different reasons some of them I can not even explain.  I miss his laugh and smile and him talking about the old days.  I miss his smell.  I miss his love for me.  I know in my heart that he is looking down and watching over me and saying you did it KIDDO~!~  I smile behind my tears, as I would give anything for just one more day with him.  Today, I feel numb and I know that is not what he wanted from me but, now it is my time to heal as I have not had time to do so as I have been going through so many different things I have been putting off so for now, I will take the time I need to heal and grow!!  I will always love you Gramps and can not believe how much you loved me and how much I miss you!!!  Save my seat and give everyone there my love and tell them how much I miss them too!!!  I will see you again one day until then so long Gramps (as you would always say to me so long KIDDO)  Forever in my heart and soul and my mind and my DREAMS............

Tell let me ya'll something about my MUTHER......

SHE IS THE BEST MUTHER EVER...... JUST US 7 FOR LIFE..... JUST SAYING..... :0)