Tell let me ya'll something about my MUTHER......

SHE IS THE BEST MUTHER EVER...... JUST US 7 FOR LIFE..... JUST SAYING..... :0)

Oh and BTW!~!~!

If you want to know something about anything that is going on from now on don't count on getting very much information out of me I would hate to disappoint anyone else GOD for bid.....

Once upon a time.....

Once upon a time a girl tried to do her very very best at helping everyone and doing and doing for everyone else and then she found out that not everyone was grateful and when she needed help she was shamed and disappointed at the way things came out.  She thought by doing things she would be loved more by the ones she did things for but, soon they quickly forgot all the things she did for them also so the little girl said I guess I will keep it simply try to leave DRAMA out of things and move on... As, I guess some people can not see what they have right in front of them and now that the little girl knows she will master things without a second thought or asking for anything other than a smile...... :0)  The little girl had not always been the best person in the world but, she did, did and did and now it has come back to bit her and she is not fond of that so from now on the little girl has decided to do what it takes to make it without asking for anything from anyone ever again... THE END....

Here comes the rain.....

Lately, it has been raining at night and lighting and making all that noise in the back ground well, it started early today.  I have not been blogging much as everyone knows but, I have just had so much on my mind lately that I have to forget shit and let it go~!~  I have that feeling that you know when you do something for someone and then after you do it you really wished you had not well that is me today. I feel used and I know I deserve better I thought I was really helping this person and it turns out all they really wanted was to use me.  I have such a big heart and it is hard to say no but, lately and from now I will be saying "NO".... to whatever unless it is something I know will make me feel good about me!~!  We have some serious stuff going on and I am stressing which I no have no control over but, I can't help it that is just how I roll.  I am going to have to let me body and mind rest and let GOD do the rest because I just can not do it anymore truly.  I have not always been the best person in the world but, I have paid my dues and I will not let anyone or anything make me feel any different oh they try but, I will not let them defeat me anymore sure I have probably said the same thing over and over and over and now I am even getting sick of hearing myself say it.  So, today it is time for change like the rain it might rain for 5 minutes and then again it might rain for 5 hours.  I am done being someone I am not and living for me and my family and the rest is just that NOTHING..... feeling useless and used~!~!~!  Helloooooo in there Charlie Brown move over Laurajean Haas-Guzman needs some room.

I have had enough.......

There comes a time in life when you have to say "NO" and let go and start living for you... I have not always been able to do this but, lately I have been there and done that and I will not be used, abused, or only needed when it is good for you.  Sometimes, you think friends and family are everything to you and then you find out most of it is BULLSHIT.... I have had enough of two faced people and their fake this and fake that.  I can count the people I trust on one hand and have a few fingers left.  I miss my Gramps so much he would always know just the right thing to say even if it was that I was crazier than a shit house rat.... :')  I was picked, poked, smashed and tomorrow I will be poked again but, at least it will be by Dr. Sexy.  Little Dude has has Clearwater appt and he dislikes that so much and I always get so upset worrying something will happen.  I will be glad when he is big enough to go where Dylan and SkyeNina go as it is very hard to go so far.  I must get a start doing things to get ready for tomorrow almost got everything ready but, need to wrap it up.  Homework is done and dinner is cooking so I am doing better than I thought... Thought for today if you don't love me the way I am leave me alone and just let me be...... Do us "ALL" a favor.... Thank you!~!~!~!~

8 1/2 and counting.... :0)

Talk about being a blog slacker well that would be "ME" I have just had not much to say lately.  It is always the same old thing more doctor's more tests more this more that.  I am getting really sick of it big time.  But, I guess that is what happens when you get old.  Only 9 1/2 more days but since we are going to see Dr. Blake and Dr. Sexy we will also be off on Thursday.  So it is only 8 1/2 for us.  I went to lunch with a friend of mine from school LeAnne she is so super sweet and I just think she is so neat but, I don't have a clue of what half of what she said today she is super shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and I am super LOUD.... LQTM but I did enjoy it.  I have 6 whole days off with no appt's and then bang they are start coming and coming but, I am getting them done and that is it and that will be that.  Well, that is all for now and I guess not much new here so I am off to bed and watch Hardcore Pawn. 

Being the big "45" and a blog slacker..... :/

I had an amazing 45th birthday and I got lots of goodies and cake and an arrangement from my sister and cards.  But I tell you the one thing I missed the most was getting a card from my Gramps.  He was always the first one to send me one and he never forgot.  My Mother took me to the Sebring Diner and we had a yummy lunch so good. And then we had ice cream cake and then the fruit arrangement from my BBS.  We had a good day.  I thank everyone so much for making my 45th birthday so special.  I have been staying busy lately trying to keep on my mind off things and doing a little of this and that.  Took Mom to her second eye surgery and everything went well.  I am so happy for her now she can see without glasses except small small prints.  I know that is an amazing feeling for her.  My sister graduated on May 11 and it was awesome and breathtaking and amazing I am so proud of her.  I hope she can find a good job one that treats her like she should be treated.  The house closed today and I know Gramps has been gone since March but this was kinda the end for me.  They say when one door closes another opens.... I am hoping on that.  I have been lonely lately and not feeling so good but it is my nerves but I am starting to calm down some for a while.  I will be glad when July 24th comes around and then the estate with be closed and I can move forward everything is pretty much done and now we wait for the 90 day period thing and then that will be that.  I miss him more some days than others but I am doing better.  Only 15 1/2 more days of school left and I am over the top about that.  Going to get a pool for the summer so we don't have to ask to go anywhere and people don't have to try to be nice and say yes when they really mean no.  And I can not wait until I don't have to get up early and do this and do that... I am one excited Mom.  Thank you Mom again for getting the kids today we both made it at the same times which worked out prefect and we got to visit and that always makes my day.  Ok I have to fold two loads of clothes and get a few more things done then bed time.  The AC guys are coming tomorrow to check to AC to make sure everything is ok for summer well shit since it has been summer since Jan I guess now is a good time to get it done... Ok later Peeps!~!~! Sweet Dreams and until tomorrow... :0)