Places to go things to do oh geeezzzz

Ok, now that I have all my stuff done for the kids to start school... Don't Hate!~!~ But, seriously it was sad all the supplies they needed this year, I thought damn am I supplying the whole entire school or what??? It is sad because someone people just don't have that kind of money or don't care about it because sucker MOTHER'S like me buy all that shit...... Anyway, all has been bought and labeled and pack in their bags to go met teachers on the 15th.  We have so many different things going on in August and I hate to say it I wish it was over already and it has not even started yet.  But, we have to do what we have to do to get it done.  I have 8 different Doctor's appointments in August oh yeah!~!~  I have a feeling it will go by quick and easy but, I am praying the one appointment goes well very well.  I can not believe that summer is almost over.  It went by so fast and we never got to go any where fun or go do anything!!  But, we do have a nice pool and deck and we are having a blast.  I am going to fold two loads of clothes and then go to bed as I spelt all day long because the Dr. changed my med's around AGAIN.. I so dislike that but, that is the breaks when the change and thyroid and everything else is flipping out.  Go folks I will blog again this week I know you miss my blogs... LOL LOL ..... Later Taters!~!~!~!~!~!   :0)  ps. I am very truly blessed and grateful that Gina my Bestest Friend in the whole wide world will be coming down on the 6th and staying with us until the 8th just in case something should happen, I will let the ones who know what it is about after it is all over... Most of you know already.  Prayers are needed and greatly appreciated.  Final count on summer vacation days left:   21 now that is a sad sad number of days... I wonder what will become of those days.... Promises Promises!!!!!!!!!!! We shall see as they say!~!~!~!  LQTM....

After today it all seems sad and unreal......

Well, today seems to be very sad and unreal.  I can not believe it has been over 4 months since my Grandfather passed away.  It seems like yesterday I was going for weekly visits and running him around Publix losing him because he walked so darn fast.  And missing those three days a week calls to him to check up on him to see how he was doing.  Listening to his wise words of wisdom and thoughts and knowledge was amazing.  He brought such joy to my life, for so many different reasons some of them I can not even explain.  I miss his laugh and smile and him talking about the old days.  I miss his smell.  I miss his love for me.  I know in my heart that he is looking down and watching over me and saying you did it KIDDO~!~  I smile behind my tears, as I would give anything for just one more day with him.  Today, I feel numb and I know that is not what he wanted from me but, now it is my time to heal as I have not had time to do so as I have been going through so many different things I have been putting off so for now, I will take the time I need to heal and grow!!  I will always love you Gramps and can not believe how much you loved me and how much I miss you!!!  Save my seat and give everyone there my love and tell them how much I miss them too!!!  I will see you again one day until then so long Gramps (as you would always say to me so long KIDDO)  Forever in my heart and soul and my mind and my DREAMS............

Tell let me ya'll something about my MUTHER......

SHE IS THE BEST MUTHER EVER...... JUST US 7 FOR LIFE..... JUST SAYING..... :0)

Oh and BTW!~!~!

If you want to know something about anything that is going on from now on don't count on getting very much information out of me I would hate to disappoint anyone else GOD for bid.....

Once upon a time.....

Once upon a time a girl tried to do her very very best at helping everyone and doing and doing for everyone else and then she found out that not everyone was grateful and when she needed help she was shamed and disappointed at the way things came out.  She thought by doing things she would be loved more by the ones she did things for but, soon they quickly forgot all the things she did for them also so the little girl said I guess I will keep it simply try to leave DRAMA out of things and move on... As, I guess some people can not see what they have right in front of them and now that the little girl knows she will master things without a second thought or asking for anything other than a smile...... :0)  The little girl had not always been the best person in the world but, she did, did and did and now it has come back to bit her and she is not fond of that so from now on the little girl has decided to do what it takes to make it without asking for anything from anyone ever again... THE END....

Here comes the rain.....

Lately, it has been raining at night and lighting and making all that noise in the back ground well, it started early today.  I have not been blogging much as everyone knows but, I have just had so much on my mind lately that I have to forget shit and let it go~!~  I have that feeling that you know when you do something for someone and then after you do it you really wished you had not well that is me today. I feel used and I know I deserve better I thought I was really helping this person and it turns out all they really wanted was to use me.  I have such a big heart and it is hard to say no but, lately and from now I will be saying "NO".... to whatever unless it is something I know will make me feel good about me!~!  We have some serious stuff going on and I am stressing which I no have no control over but, I can't help it that is just how I roll.  I am going to have to let me body and mind rest and let GOD do the rest because I just can not do it anymore truly.  I have not always been the best person in the world but, I have paid my dues and I will not let anyone or anything make me feel any different oh they try but, I will not let them defeat me anymore sure I have probably said the same thing over and over and over and now I am even getting sick of hearing myself say it.  So, today it is time for change like the rain it might rain for 5 minutes and then again it might rain for 5 hours.  I am done being someone I am not and living for me and my family and the rest is just that NOTHING..... feeling useless and used~!~!~!  Helloooooo in there Charlie Brown move over Laurajean Haas-Guzman needs some room.

I have had enough.......

There comes a time in life when you have to say "NO" and let go and start living for you... I have not always been able to do this but, lately I have been there and done that and I will not be used, abused, or only needed when it is good for you.  Sometimes, you think friends and family are everything to you and then you find out most of it is BULLSHIT.... I have had enough of two faced people and their fake this and fake that.  I can count the people I trust on one hand and have a few fingers left.  I miss my Gramps so much he would always know just the right thing to say even if it was that I was crazier than a shit house rat.... :')  I was picked, poked, smashed and tomorrow I will be poked again but, at least it will be by Dr. Sexy.  Little Dude has has Clearwater appt and he dislikes that so much and I always get so upset worrying something will happen.  I will be glad when he is big enough to go where Dylan and SkyeNina go as it is very hard to go so far.  I must get a start doing things to get ready for tomorrow almost got everything ready but, need to wrap it up.  Homework is done and dinner is cooking so I am doing better than I thought... Thought for today if you don't love me the way I am leave me alone and just let me be...... Do us "ALL" a favor.... Thank you!~!~!~!~