It is not my business........

It is not my business and not my area anymore to continue to try and make people happy who are not happy with themselves and since I have always been a people pleaser I will no LONGER do that either.  I will be happy and please the ones who appreciate it and love me unconditionally from this point on.  I will not let anyone or anything make me feel as I have done something wrong.  I always own it when I am and I always say I am sorry when needed.  I feel like the walls are closing in on me and I have been so happy lately and then I tried once again to be the better person well, as Dr. Phil would say how is that working for you..... Well, I tell you it is not working at all.  LQTM.  I have said over a billion times I will not do that anymore and here I sat doing it and I was doing so good and I am so mad at myself.  I think people when you tell them something about how they are and they get mad it is because it is TRUE and they don't like it.  But, that is not my area either, nor my business.  I am sick and tired of people acting like they are the VICTIM here.... You can always change if you want it bad enough.  I did.... It took a lot but, I did it.  I am going to be me and try and let everything that is on my mind go I have so much coming up and I need to have a clear mind and soul.  On the movie Mr. Mom he said which I love ..... It is really easy to forget what is important so don't ..... But, I know what I have done and I can do but, NO MORE... I will enjoy the time with my family and with my Mother and a few good friends and that is that.  Just saying...... JUST US 7 for life!~!~!~!  :0)

2 Quotes for today and to live by....

Living Life..... Life is not a race but, indeed a journey. Be "HONEST". Work hard. Be choosy. Say "thank you", "I love you", and "great job" to someone each day. Go to church, take time for prayer. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh. Let your handshake mean more than pen and paper. Love your life and what you've been given, it is not accidental ~ Search for your purpose and do it as best... you can. Dreaming does matter. It allows you to become that which you aspire to be. Laugh often. Appreciate the little things in life and enjoy them. Some of the best things really are free. Do not worry, less wrinkles are more becoming. FORGIVE, it frees the soul. Take time for yourself ~ plan for longevity. Recognize the special people you've been blessed to know. Live for today, ENJOY THE MOMENT....... :0)

 

 

Life..... Seize it and make it amazing. Have adventures. Find your voice. Ask questions. Use your imagination. Make a difference. Surround yourself with only GOOD FRIENDS. Be kind & generous. Discover your passion. Make mistakes. Take chances. Follow your dreams. Today is the day, DON'T let it pass you by...... :0)

 

I am getting good at this thinking thing, I just might be growing up after all..... 

Fall back my A@@...

I wish they would leave the time changing ALONE.. I like it when it gets darker earlier that way I can get the kids to wind down easier.  I have been a real slacker lately blogging but, after this last surgery of doing the ablation nearly did me in and now I have to go back and do a full hysterectomy which we probably should have done in the first place but, we thought it would work.  Grayson will be going to do his Ct Scan Tuesday which of course I am not happy about but, this ENT specialist wants to see what is going on before we take out the sinuses and the tonsils, I think we are just wasting time but, again I am not the Doctor.  This week was so emotionally draining and I never get like that but, I have so much going on I feel like I will never see the end of the tunnel.  But, I know that I am getting close.  I have almost given up on them ever getting my levels under control because it is low or high or blahhhh.  I will know more the 11th.  I finally finished my MRI and they are three large grey spots on my neck and I knew that but, now it is just what are they going to do about it.  I promised my Gramps that I would not have any kind of back surgery before he passed away.  I will ask the Doctor if it is life threatening then I will ponder if not I will just deal with it I have been dealing with it for so long now I am numb to it anymore.  It feels like it is 3:00 and it is way pass my bed time but, yes me I had to fold the clothes so that after I take the kids to school I can clean this nasty house... I have let it go too long and I can not stand it anymore.  Went over to see my Mom today with SkyeNina and Little Dude, Dylan was talking to Donald and playing mine craft so I made Mom and I a pineapple cake and we ate it and stayed for just a little while.  I can not believe it is November and Thanksgiving is right around the corner and let's not even talk about Christmas..... GRRRRRRRRRRR Ok, I am off to hit the hay and dream a wonderful dream!~!~!

This is for my Mom I love you so much!~!~! :')

I love you Mom, with all I have and with everything that I am today!~!~ You are my everything today and everyday!~!~ You are never ALONE!~!~ I will always be there..... JUST us "7"......

Sometimes you just have to say what the heck.....

The last couple of months have been very stressful and over rated by so many things!!! I am going to STOP worrying about people who will not change and be POSITIVE!!! I have been through so much in the past few months that most people go through in a lifetime.  But, I will never lose my faith or who I have become.  It has not been easy I tell you but, it is the little things like getting a text or email or phone call asking if there is anything I can help you with or anything I can do for you and most of all HOW ARE YOU TODAY!~!  I only get these things for a few people and they know who they are and I love them deeply.  All the others who pretend and are fake I do not have time for you anymore or could I care less if you don't have time for me or to even respond than I hope you live a wonderful life ALONE.  And may GOD bless you!!!  I have no times for games life is too short for the BULLSHIT!~!~  I am me and I am done with all the crap that comes with it.  POSITIVE ONLY from now on and I think I am starting off very well...... :) I love the new feeling!!! Today, is Dylan's birthday he turns 11 I can not believe it.... It seems like yesterday I was bringing him home for HRMC and  he was so little.  My Mother is coming over and we are going to party down... All day and All night..... I must get to bed as the birthday fairy is very very sleepy hee hee`!~!~

Today was another day of rain and worry.....

We have as a family been doing a lot of worrying here lately on things we truly have no control over but, we are still human and we still worry.  I for one still worry enough for the whole family.  The Boss' families all live in the very hard hit area of Mexico he has been trying to get through to anyone over there can not.  I see the look of worry in his eye's even though he would never say a word about it.  He has been trying so hard to find a good job close to home but, that has been totally impossible.  But, I have faith that very soon the door will open for him and he will have a better job than he ever dreamed of one that does not take advantage of him and his kindness and his hard work of his loyal back breaking body.  I know this because my Mother told me so... ;) I love you, Mom~!~!  We had so much fun on Sunday with Granny and we get to spend her birthday with her and love her and shower her with gifts that I have so carefully picked out.  I have to take one thing back as they messed it up for a SECOND TIME.... But, they always say third time is a CHARM.  Well, at least it better be and no Mom it is not a CHARM.... LMAO!~!~!~  Tomorrow is going to be rough.  Tomorrow my Gramps would have been 95 and all his glory.  I still can't believe he is gone.  I will pick up my phone and say I am going to call him and then I remember I can't and I cry and think could I have done everything else better for him to make him want to fight to live longer for me.  The song "Don't" was on when he decided to turn off everything and I remember every single word.  Lots, of them he said to me.  A few were don't give up on me, we can do this, told me not to fight with the Boss he was a good hard working man and to not fuss over him.  Told me to "TRUST" and believe and always stand up for what I think is right even if I think in my heart I am wrong and "DON'T" ever forget to say that you are "SORRY" when needed.  It was so hard to watch him slip away but, he looked so happy.  So tomorrow will be rough and sad and love and joy and heart break and love a lot of love for someone who no matter how hard I tried never gave up on me.  Tomorrow I will celebrate his life with his wonderful memory of being the best man I have ever known in my "LIFETIME"..... And I will listen to the song "DON'T" and cry I am almost sure of it.  And then remember I got to do something most people never get to do and that was be with him until the end of his wonderful and amazing life with us!!!! After, I got the call not long after I left there and I helped the sweet young boy who looked like it was his first time at very seeing someone who had passed away along with myself and helping him lift him on to the bed to roll him in the car I felt a warm breeze through my body as the boy looked as surprised as I seemed and he asked me did I want him to walk me to my car.  I told him no I have someone walking with him at first I don't think he understood and then he smiling back at me and said ok, Laurajean..... And as I walked to the car it felts like it was miles away and I got in the car an cried and screamed for the man I loved so dearly (Even if I was crazier than a shit house rat) and slowly pulled away and on the radio was the song "DON'T"...... :')  I love you today and ALWAYS FOREVER IN MY HEART AND SOUL AND MIND......Frances Peter Haas 3/22/2013........

A little something "SPECIAL" for my Mother......

I wanted to write a very very very "SPECIAL" Thank you to my Mother for so many things and to tell her just how "GRATEFUL" I am to have such a wonderful Mother in my life.  She can light up the room with her smile, her laugh, her love, her listening ears, her shoulder to cry on, her ability to always have something for me to think deeply about in her wise words of wisdom.  She has been my "ROCK" for me and The Boss and my kids for so long now I could not ever imagine my life without her in it.  I wanted to Thank you for going with us on Monday, I know the man behind the chair (who will remain a secret) was so HAPPY to see you and knowing you were supporting me and the Boss meant the world to us both.  I so enjoyed you coming over on GRANDPARENT(S) DAY and letting us shower you with our love~!~!  But, most of all I want to Thank you for always being there for me when I feel I have no-one, or no where else to turn or talk to you are always there.  You and I have been through so much together and I appreciate you so much not just for always being there when I ask but, for the LOVE that comes with it.  It is something I can take to my grave and tell myself that my Mother loved me like no other.  You are so special not only to me but, to my family.  I love you for everything and for all YOU DO, DID, DONE, DOING to make sure we are going to make this a much easier thing to get through.  I know it seems like it is never going to end but, I am HEALING in more ways than one.  And that is because of you MOM~!~! :0)  I don't know what I would do without your love, caring, support and laughing so hard until we both pee~!~!  You amaze me and you have never let me down no matter HARD things have become and believe me they have become HARD but, with a lot of things down and a few more things to go I think we are on the ROAD of excellent HEALTH and HEALING and The Boss~!!~  I love you so very much Mom and there is no way I could say enough Thank You, Thank You, Thank You, in my lifetime but, I will try~!~! You are our world and Just us "7" for life.....  You will never know just how much your love and support has meant to me.  Much Much Love, Your Favorite "YOUNGEST" daughter and the Queen of run on sentences at your service.... BWAHHAAHHAHHAHHAH I am getting better ok, well maybe not today but, I am getting there... LMAO!~!! XOXOXOOOXOXOOXO THANK YOU MOM/SAL/ MD/ MaMi/Granny/Old lady Granny/Gran-Tan/Mother/Charrpo so many names for such a little woman!~!~!  Ps. That what we talked about today during our Mother & Daughter Day which is always so much fun is on it's way to the drop off and pick up place wink wink..... :0)  Things are looking up.  Now to deal with this health stuff and go back to my favorite Dr. of all times is going to be the best thing to make me well again as we talked about.  I feel LUCKY`!`  Muahhhhhhhhhhhh THANK YOU MOM FOR EVERYTHING!~!~!~!~! Pss. Thank you for getting Young Dylan his book as he seems to be a speed reader, I know he did not get that from me. Must have gotten it from his GRANNY!~!~! ;0)