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If you want to know something about anything that is going on from now on don't count on getting very much information out of me I would hate to disappoint anyone else GOD for bid.....

Once upon a time.....

Once upon a time a girl tried to do her very very best at helping everyone and doing and doing for everyone else and then she found out that not everyone was grateful and when she needed help she was shamed and disappointed at the way things came out.  She thought by doing things she would be loved more by the ones she did things for but, soon they quickly forgot all the things she did for them also so the little girl said I guess I will keep it simply try to leave DRAMA out of things and move on... As, I guess some people can not see what they have right in front of them and now that the little girl knows she will master things without a second thought or asking for anything other than a smile...... :0)  The little girl had not always been the best person in the world but, she did, did and did and now it has come back to bit her and she is not fond of that so from now on the little girl has decided to do what it takes to make it without asking for anything from anyone ever again... THE END....

Here comes the rain.....

Lately, it has been raining at night and lighting and making all that noise in the back ground well, it started early today.  I have not been blogging much as everyone knows but, I have just had so much on my mind lately that I have to forget shit and let it go~!~  I have that feeling that you know when you do something for someone and then after you do it you really wished you had not well that is me today. I feel used and I know I deserve better I thought I was really helping this person and it turns out all they really wanted was to use me.  I have such a big heart and it is hard to say no but, lately and from now I will be saying "NO".... to whatever unless it is something I know will make me feel good about me!~!  We have some serious stuff going on and I am stressing which I no have no control over but, I can't help it that is just how I roll.  I am going to have to let me body and mind rest and let GOD do the rest because I just can not do it anymore truly.  I have not always been the best person in the world but, I have paid my dues and I will not let anyone or anything make me feel any different oh they try but, I will not let them defeat me anymore sure I have probably said the same thing over and over and over and now I am even getting sick of hearing myself say it.  So, today it is time for change like the rain it might rain for 5 minutes and then again it might rain for 5 hours.  I am done being someone I am not and living for me and my family and the rest is just that NOTHING..... feeling useless and used~!~!~!  Helloooooo in there Charlie Brown move over Laurajean Haas-Guzman needs some room.